Boxing Queen

learning to fight back

There are 3 different types of arguments.

Finnian vs World

Finnian vs Man

Finnian vs Finnian

These days, Its a mixed bag. The Id, Ego, Super Ego conversation is still ongoing but today I wanted to contextualize this within my physicality.

It started going to Bushwick. Nick is helping me shoot content for my song coming out later this month, and he was going to record me getting a tattoo for it in Bushwick. If you are new here- I don’t do Bushwick. It is kind of my thing to be an evil Manhattanite bitch. But lo and behold, I got Hitlist on my lower back. Shout out to “Ink Mommy” who really showed me the lay of the land. I’m more inspired to get something real one day.

( No, Its not real. Sorry for scaring everyone)

After I got “tattooed”, I accidentally got happy hour drunk with Nick at Grey Dog. It felt super millennial. I was on my ass after two $9 margaritas and a handful of tortilla chips. It totally ruined my second shoot of the day. I was late, It was raining and I was soaked. I got my ass handed to me in a boxing ring while we took more videos and photos for Hitlist. And I did all this after starting my new job which is crazy in itself.

( I can’t bench 118lbs, which is my body weight. But now I want to)

To fix the Finnian vs Myself problem, I started going back to the gym. I haven’t been in months and I pay out the ass for it. Not being able to hold up my bodyweight crushed my spirit. I want to at least have some muscle on my bones, regardless of the eating disorder. I think it would be an adventure to learn how to beat the fuck out of someone. Maybe I’ll develop some self preservation skills that I currently lack.

I feel as though there is a thin layer of dust over my life, my furniture and my goals. Like if I blow too hard the air will pick it up and I’ll sneeze. I don’t think I was made for a 9-5, even if I keep saying I will one day. I get bored of my surroundings quickly. Maybe boxing is the new thing for a couple months until I get sick of the chalk powder, leather and sweat. Or maybe it becomes my new God.

You can presave my new song Hitlist by clicking this link X

Ed and I really had a good time with this one. I love that 2008-2010 radio energy that I grew up envying. Club hits from 2010 lowkey still slap. Jason Derulo rocks. I hope you guys like this one as much as I do.

New idea: Finnian vs Your Spotify

You’ll be hearing from me,

Finnian x